Age creeps up on us all slowly stripping away our fine youth then one day we look into the bright mirror and the body does not seem to match the sparkle in the eyes no more. Then we start to look over our shoulder at our past and think wow, I wonder what would have happened or what if I had taken this path in my life?
The concept of there only being one life and a limited amount of useful time to live it is to most people like someone saying there is no Santa Claus at all. We simply want to believe in forever just like we wanted to believe in happily ever after as children frequently do.
You may think I am advocating quitting/loosing your job and going trekking somewhere in Africa but no that is not where this is going. Living is a real art itself it is not about time management or fit as much in as I can. It is about real passion, depth, vision, love and much more you can bring around.
I wish I could remember the taste/flavor of a meal long after I have eaten it, I wish I could see my partners/friends face long after they have left, I wish I could feel my friends big tight hug as he/she embraced me long after he/she had let go, I wish I could picture the one time my lovely Mother said I love you long after she is gone, I wish I was so in tune with this life, so aware, so enlightened that every moment was my greatest and I could feel it, taste it, and truly live it, yes really.
I do not want to wait until somebody tells me there are no more moments left I do not want to feel cheated because a Higher Power took my moments boom away. I want to be grateful a Higher Power gave me the moment to begin with and even provide me more sweet moments in life.
As youth slips away day by day and it will slowly, I want to be able to look in the mirror and see the happiness of a life lived with depth and passion etched in my own face. I want to be able to feel the touch of my lovers hand as it brushed away my tears not just remember it in mind. But unless I am very truly aware truly in the moment at the time allowing myself to feel, letting go of different expectations, letting go of the need to hold something back, unless that happens all I will have is a vague memory somewhere in my head. I want more I want an imprint so strong I can carry it with me and feel it when the moments are at an end, can you feel this with me….
My wish for you is that you may look in the same mirror of self reflection long before youth has vanished. I hope you will realize life doesn’t need to be pumped or filled up with things rather it needs to be soaked up for all it has to offer right now at this moment. My wish for you is that you may experience even for a second a state of total being when everything falls down away and time stands still and you can taste the air you breath in and out, feel the earth pulsate beneath your feet and hear the whisper of the Holy Angels.